People Suck.

Srsly, people suck. NJK. I am so over it right now. Still feel dumb/stupid but I mean, what can I do now... cant change anything abt whats happened so yeah. can I j say WTF. so pissed. really?? like srsly did I j make this big of a fool of myself the past 2wks??! wtf.

true story: I started the Virginia Bar exam application today. (oh yeah, totes have the NC one done but I am over this place... :( )

ok, the end, im done ranting. im going to go eat ice cream and other bad things for my life....

:)

having a really good self esteem day i think. still working on my OOC upper level paper for Health Law. its on Euthanasia and Physician Assisted Suicide. Such an uplifting topic, right??

haha, well, I am taking the day off from running b/c since Sat, Ive run nearly 31 miles and my legs are tired and sore.  Also, I am officially like 21lbs away from my weight loss goal.  Since Aug 2009, I am 66.8lbs down from the heaviest I've ever been in life. I feel great!

Also, I re-discovered my love for espresso and Jason Mraz this week.


In other world news, still confused by people. Excited abt this wkend though. Halloween pty/bar review on Thurs, no class/work on Fri, Carrie Underwood concert on Fri night, and a wkend full of studying for the MPRE.


oh life, you are so amazing to me sometimes. love you long time.

ok must stop getting distracted and write more b/c my paper is due at 5pm!

do you ever have a low self esteem day?? I feel like today is one for me.... ever since I got back from detroit, my sleep sched has been so messed up and I fall asleep on my sofa, my chair, etc while I was writing and working on my paper that was due this past Weds at 5pm.  This morning, I overslept (again!wtf) and we had a client for wills clinic at 9am so I planned to meet my partner at 815, um yeah she called me at 813 and then i got ready asap and peaced out.  I was at the clinic from about 830-105pm..turned in my bar prep midterm late....then I went to the post office to get the mail for work then i went to work a little early and so i was talking with my boss and paralegal about our big trial this week (yay our client got everything he wanted, overnight and unsupervised joint custody with his baby daughter!!!) and then she needed me to take a form because I had to be in IV-D court at 2pm.. I got there a little late (around 215) and didnt see my client there. Soooo I panicked.  I talked to the CSE agent and yeah um he hadn't paid anything since AUGUST. our last hearing date. WTF.  So I go into the Attorney's lounge and try and call him, um his dad (yes, this grown man lives with his father) said he had no idea where his son was but was having car trouble and didnt know where he was... I had even called yesterday to make sure he remembered to come today. yeah no. he didnt.  So the court was so backed up and had about half of the morning docket to do and that took foreverrrr.  they didnt start the afternoon docket until nearly 330.  my case was finally called near the end and I tried my best to give excuses as to why my client wasnt there and I argued that he had made some sort of payment up until now even as unemployed and he always had his list of places of potential employment every time until now but she said since he didnt show up and hadnt made payments in 2 months, she put an order out for his arrest with a $3000 cash bond.  first client of mine that went to jail..

ugh, i was so exhausted when i got back to the office, it was nearly 430 so then I talk to my boss and then some lady called in for a consultation so i was doing her intake and then after i finally got off the phone, i finished the work I was doing (OMGGGG my list for monday is insane!) but i still have a ton of work for monday when i go in at noon.  i am j so drained.

i am burnt out in every sense of the word. physically, emotionally, mentally. it is ridiculous.  Im abt to go drink some wine, take a nice hot bubble bath, and then benadryl myself to sleep...

also, guys, they confuse me. srsly. I DONT UNDERSTAND.

maybe i just need to go to danville for a little while...... ?

This is not abt anyone in particular..

I just love this song. So sweet.  (I hope one day I feel like that... and that I won't be a scary cat lady when I'm old... b/c lets be srs, at this point, I might j get my mom to make me a biodata to pass around..)


When I was younger, I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart and I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist

But darling, you are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

But you are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof, it's not a dream, oh

You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing

need life update

I have so much to update on my life but I am so exhausted at this point in life.  here's a teaser in case anyone is interested--

1- Finally decided where I am taking the Bar exam next July (NC!)
2- Running is amazing, ran a 5k couple wkends ago.  1/2 Marathon is coming up on 02/27/10
3- Visited my big bro this past wkend in Detroit, MI b/c he j bought a new house.
4- School= OOC.
5-Work= AMAZING.
6- Me= tired. (but I could go for a dance party.....)
7- Ive realized the past few months why so many lawyers are alchys... I 'm training right now.
8- I miss sleep.



more later. w. pictures :)