Life. Kinda ridic.

well, life's been kinda interesting/ridic lately.  school is alright. being on call for crim pro made me feel like a moron but I guess that's just your typical day in law school right? probs no. oh well. sometimes, I like re-evaluate some life choices Ive made and I kinda wonder what if. I know that is so dumb and just a waste of time but after days like today, I wonder what if I didnt go to law school.  What would I be doing? Would I have some random desk job or would I be in some other form of higher ed? IDK.  I just had a bad day I guess so thats whats prompting all this crazy talk.

In other life news, I think I am pretty over all that drama from dec-jan.  I just realized that I just cant waste time on stressing about things/guys that dont matter anymore and really, I think I am better off now.  Before maybe I just said that to make myself feel better (ahhaha what girl doesnt act like that?!) but now I really believe it.  I dont know why I let myself get so caught up in all of it in Jan and the past couple wks, what the f was I like worried about??!! I am doing well in school (well, except for today) and I'm getting along with my family, I have some great trips planned for the next few months (Florida+ Disney for Spring Break and Greece in May after finals) and so now I just need to worry about finding a job for the summer and thats like my main concern.  ANYWAYS.

What else? I love Virginia Tech but thats nothing new. My hokies are playing some amazing basketball this season, I just wish they didnt play such crappy non-conference teams.  But they should be in the NCAA tournament so I'm happy! In other world news, I guess I'm just like in a weird place right now, trying to get my head on straight after finally getting over all of that ridic-ness and trying to get focused on my running and continue my weight loss plan.  For the first time in my life, I plan on being in bathing suit condition by the time I go to Greece, and hopefully by the time I go to Florida.  I love running! I'm running in the Women's Law Association 5K in a couple weeks so that should be fun! It's my first 5k so I am kinda nervous but I just need to find a running buddy or something.  I think I just need to be confident in myself.  I know that I run more than 5k three times a week but this is different than running on a treadmill.  THis week I am starting my 5 days a week running sched.  Hopefully I can keep it up till after finals.  36 minutes per day.  on average that is 3.6 miles per day so thats about 18 miles a week.  if I can get through at least 2 straight weeks like this then Ill be good i think! That is what I am focusing on in life right now--being amazing at school, running, and being amazing in general.

Soo I just watched the last bit of He's Just Not That Into You on HBO.  I hated the book but the movie was interesting.  The last part is my favorite, when Keane's song "Somewhere Only Where We Know" starts up..the ending monologue is like so true, I've found.  For reals.
Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope. 




well, I guess thats all for now. need to finish crim pro and then get in bed!

LOVE MANISHA :)

I love Lady Gaga.

Midnight rush, with a pen in my hand
Dinkin Lincoln, sand-script with a fan
Remembering me, before it began
Sometimes I felt so Def in the Jam

Cuz the ones who loved me, told me to stop
Like homegirl can't catch shit if it drops
A superwoman chick, you know that I am
Some shit don’t fly by me in a man

Cuz I do not accept any less
Than someone just as real, as fabulous

Don’t want no PAPER GANGSTA
Won’t sign away my life to
Someone whose got the flavor
But don’t have no follow through
Don’t want no PAPER GANGSTA
Wont sign no monkey papers
I don’t do funny business
Not interested in fakers
Don’t want no PAPER GANGSTA
Oo ohhhh
Don’t want no PAPER GANGSTA
Oo ohhh

Got something really shiny to start
Want me to sign there on your Range Rover heart?
I’ve heard it before
Yeah, the dinners were nice
Till your diamond words melted into some ice

You should been rapping to the beat of my song Mr. California,
PAPER GANGSTA and I’m lookin’ for love, not an
empty page full of stuff that means nothing but
“you’ve been played”

Cuz I do not accept any less
Than someone just as real, as fabulous 

Some thoughts on life..

I love Virginia Tech. The game last night was a bit messier than I would have liked to see but a win is a win and whenever unc loses (esp by the hands of Virginia Tech), I am elated.  Last night was amazing.  Also, I love very large strawberry margaritas.

Also, I am reallly starting to enjoy good red wine.  I recently discovered this red wine I've never had before in the expansive wine section at my local Harris Teeter.  I usually enjoy a nice pinot grigio or a good reisling, and more recently, Muscato w/ Becky but this red wine (Rheinhessen) is DELISH. haha something about those german wines I just love so much! Well, I highly recommend this wine for anyone is up for trying red for the first time..

ANYWAYS. I'm currently spending the weekend going through seasons of Beverly Hills 90210 on dvd.  I finished season 7 today and am working through 8 right now.  I forgot how much I loved this show!! It makes me feel incredibly old though at times to remember that I was in like 8th grade when this came on tv for the first time hahah

A few more things on my mind right now--facebook. I am currently in the hate part of this love/hate relationship I have with it right now..all I have to say is WTF at people popping up in your news feed when you aren't fb friends anymore. I just don't get it.  And on that note, wtf at people texting you after they defriend you on fb. what the hell. whatevs.  And no, I'm not annoyed/bitter/frustrated. (p.s. I am so much more amazing/hotter than that so IDK why I really care at this point..)

Well, in other news, life is ok.  School is going well, class ranks came out last wk and I moved up 4 spaces.  Classes are good, I am really loving all of my classes this semester but after last fall, and working so hard all the time, I am seriously having a hard time finding motivation to do my readings as in depth as I used to and pay attention in class the whole time like before. I guess its just something about the first couple wks of classes and really this wk doesnt count because I barely went to school 3 days this past week.. I kind of wished I added a 6th class this semester because I feel like I have far too much free time.  I thought I was going to have other things to occupy my time this semester and enjoy life but no, so I guess I am just going to throw myself completely back into law school fall 09  mode and focus on being amazing and doing well in my classes.

Speaking of which, I am for reals looking for law related jobs. For this semester, the summer, for the rest of my life it seems.  I would love love love to work in Raleigh, especially for the NC Attorney  General's office this summer (and hopefully after graduation) and I am totally willing to relocate.  I just hope things work out for the summer and I can get my foot in there and hopefully we'll see what happens.  I've already gotten some informal responses for interviews but nothing official until after the application deadline closes on the 15th.  So now, I am looking in the DC area and ANYWHERE in North Carolina.  We'll see what happens and if nothing works out, then my backup plan= study abroad.  Going to Italy and Greece would be A-MAZING for the last half of the summer but I would much rather get some work experience.

Oh well, I can only hope and pray for things to work out in life and this summer.  We'll see how things turn out...



xoxo Manisha :)