well, life's been kinda interesting/ridic lately. school is alright. being on call for crim pro made me feel like a moron but I guess that's just your typical day in law school right? probs no. oh well. sometimes, I like re-evaluate some life choices Ive made and I kinda wonder what if. I know that is so dumb and just a waste of time but after days like today, I wonder what if I didnt go to law school. What would I be doing? Would I have some random desk job or would I be in some other form of higher ed? IDK. I just had a bad day I guess so thats whats prompting all this crazy talk.
In other life news, I think I am pretty over all that drama from dec-jan. I just realized that I just cant waste time on stressing about things/guys that dont matter anymore and really, I think I am better off now. Before maybe I just said that to make myself feel better (ahhaha what girl doesnt act like that?!) but now I really believe it. I dont know why I let myself get so caught up in all of it in Jan and the past couple wks, what the f was I like worried about??!! I am doing well in school (well, except for today) and I'm getting along with my family, I have some great trips planned for the next few months (Florida+ Disney for Spring Break and Greece in May after finals) and so now I just need to worry about finding a job for the summer and thats like my main concern. ANYWAYS.
What else? I love Virginia Tech but thats nothing new. My hokies are playing some amazing basketball this season, I just wish they didnt play such crappy non-conference teams. But they should be in the NCAA tournament so I'm happy! In other world news, I guess I'm just like in a weird place right now, trying to get my head on straight after finally getting over all of that ridic-ness and trying to get focused on my running and continue my weight loss plan. For the first time in my life, I plan on being in bathing suit condition by the time I go to Greece, and hopefully by the time I go to Florida. I love running! I'm running in the Women's Law Association 5K in a couple weeks so that should be fun! It's my first 5k so I am kinda nervous but I just need to find a running buddy or something. I think I just need to be confident in myself. I know that I run more than 5k three times a week but this is different than running on a treadmill. THis week I am starting my 5 days a week running sched. Hopefully I can keep it up till after finals. 36 minutes per day. on average that is 3.6 miles per day so thats about 18 miles a week. if I can get through at least 2 straight weeks like this then Ill be good i think! That is what I am focusing on in life right now--being amazing at school, running, and being amazing in general.
Soo I just watched the last bit of He's Just Not That Into You on HBO. I hated the book but the movie was interesting. The last part is my favorite, when Keane's song "Somewhere Only Where We Know" starts up..the ending monologue is like so true, I've found. For reals.
Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.
well, I guess thats all for now. need to finish crim pro and then get in bed!
LOVE MANISHA :)
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