Q4 2022

I've been writing a lot of posts the past few weeks and not publishing because I needed to get all my thoughts out.

C Update

Since my last public post, I have a confirmed surgery date, made some life changes for the last few months of the year, and realigning my priorities. I'm working with a great surgeon at Duke Cancer Center. He has been so thorough and thoughtful, especially with my anxieties at an all time high. This is definitely really a scary thing because it's an overnight stay at Dule Hospitaland going under general anesthesia. Shit got real when I got all my pre-op indo, which included a reminder to bring my Advance Care Directives (living will) and my HC POA with me. Thankfully I had my estate plan completed by estate attorney extraordinaire my friend Justin, back in 2017. I pulled the important docs and made sure the people I named had an electronic copy. I'm also super lucky my forever bff AW is planning to come down to NC the day before my surgery, will drive me to Duke, stay with me overnight, and then back with me at my house afterwards for a few days.

It looks like I will be out for all of December (the court schedule at least) on medical leave and plan to take the last 2 weeks of the year after courts close to tie up all the month/quarter/year end things for the firm. I'm so thankful for all the support I've received the past two weeks since opening up about what I've been going through.  It has been super unexpected but that's a demon I'll have to deal with in my head.

Fitness Goals

So with all the things going on, I've generally been keeping up with my Burn Boot Camp workouts each week. I am consistently hitting 4-5 at-home camps per work week and going on multiple 15min walks on the weekend days. This past week, my body was just exhausted so I took Friday as a rest day from Burn and let my body recover. 

This time last year I was hitting 7 workouts a week, 6 burn camps and one 5K run every weekend. My body was constantly achey, I wasn't feeling great, stress (mentally or physically on my body?) all put me in a horrible months long RA flare. I do miss 2021 Manisha size but life is an up and down and I'll get back there eventually& hopefully but with better overall health.

All the Rest

So, I decided about 1.5wks ago to stop drinking alcohol for the rest of the year. I felt like Q4 is a perfect time to get a full detox/cleanse of my system but cutting out alcohol for a while. I know I need to make changes to my diet/nutrition overall but lately I've just had the mindset that, "well, I could die tomorrow so I'm gonna eat that taco bell Mexican pizza today." This is not the healthiest mindset but this bout of depression, health problems, and physical exhaustion has just put my head in a crappy place. 

I did surprise myself on Sunday though and I finished putting my new bar stand together. I thought it would take me so much longer but I put a third of it together 2wkends ago and I finally finished it today. 

Even though I won't be partaking in any of this alcohol for a whole, at least it all looks great&organized!!!

We survived Hurricane/Tropical Storm Ian but it's been a wet few days. I spent some much needed time snuggling Rusty this weekend and hope the next couple weeks are nice and quiet.