a year can make all the difference..

So Ive been thinking a lot about the past year.....so much has changed, I feel like more of an adult haha (granted that my dad still supports me in every way possible) but liek last year this time, I wasn't even on speaking terms w/ my brother, let alone even looking at him I was so mad at him. But now, like I think after traveling to the motherland and back, my brother and I have gotten closer..its interesting. Honestly, its more surprising than anything because I think I will always be a little angry/upset over everything that happened graduation weekend but really, I cant hold on to all that forever and be miserable. but things are a lot better since Christmas break especially and then going to India. And then I went up to Blacksburg a few wkends ago and we hung out/ I went out w/ him and his friends and realized that they are ooc. and also, girls who are obsessed/in love w/ my brother ALWAYS want to be my bff. that is still annoying...
But yeah, I am really getting along w/ my family so well right now, its amazing. I love my life. And I just feel good about life in general! I've lost almost 40 lbs since last August, I am doing amazing in school, my family is amazing and everything is just good. After like December, I realized that family is who you really can count on the most. No matter how much you screw up or upset you are, they are the ones who are going to be there for you no matter what. This is not in reference to anything I have done but in general, something I've observed w/ my family. Granted, we still have our moments where we bicker and fight like any other normal family but I personally feel like I am getting along better w/ my family so much more than this time last year. If you can imagine, my intensity level has decreased immensely. I mean, I am still intense when it comes to school and whatnot but I am so much more easygoing w/ life and I dont let things get to me like I used to do back in undergrad/when I was younger. I feel like its just learning to be more flexible and if things dont go your way its not going to be the end of the world, obvi. I feel like a lot has happened in the past year and it has opened my eyes that a lot of the things i used to worry about was just trivial and pointless, especially compared to other things going on in life/in the world.
ANYways. but yeah, this past year has been kinda interesting. Last spring semester was so ridic. I ccant believe how crazy it was..school just about broke my spirit last spring, if that makes sense... i feel lilke I worked so so hard and it didnt pay off in the end...and then the summer was ok, not the best or anything and just ok..

BUT this past semester was pretty freaking amazing, if I do say so myself! I started off the semester with the mindset that I was going to set some life goals and accomplish them! First, lose weight! and I did tthat!! I need to get back to my serious workout schedule so I stop feeling so useless this semster! Ive been sick the past 3 wks on and off so thats why I havent gotten back to it yet. Second goal was to focus on school but have some fun in there too, a more of a balance if you will! My friends made me have a 'social weekend' of Fun Manisha once a month and that ws a lot of fun too and really jsut helped me not get so overwhelmed with the ridiculousness that was law school last semester. Also, other things last semester made it enjoyable but in the end didnt really work out but thats ok. After thinking about it and talking with my bffs, everything happens for a reason and I guess I'm glad that it happened.. I remained so calm for finals, haha only 1 panic attack this year hahaha. And winter break, well winter break was amazing. Busy but amazing. The week in PA really made me realize how thankful I am for my family and how amazing my bff April is--if I were her, I dont know if I would have been able to get through that week but she did and is so amazing! I only hope that I can be as strong of a woman as she is! Unconditional Love. thats all I have to say about that!!! Then being home for Christmas was fun, the 2 minor trips back here were NOT fun but Im glad that happened before my birthday so i wasnt miserable on my 24th! Speaking of which, NYE2010 was AMAZING. Haha, I definitely enjoyed myself in DC;) w/ my sisters and a new friend if you will hahaha whatevs It was my BIRTHDAY and I got to hang outw/ AW so that was funnnn! Then was the trip to India..the wk leading up to it I really didnt want to go and was not looking forward to the flights and traveling w/ my brother but it def was not as bad as I had imagined! My brother was actually pretty cool the whole trip and I realized how protective over me he is, but now I appreciate it rather than resent him for being overprotective. Also I learned when I visited Bburg couple wks ago, I can be just as overprotective over him hahahahaha ;)

ANYways, the past year has had its ups and downs but I defintely am in such a better place than this time last year and I really do love my life. NO Bullshit. Don't forget, 2010 is a year of No bullshit and jerkfaces! Yayyyy.


Just remember to love your life, family, and friends and everything will be ok!

xoxo Manisha :)